I remember the first time I saw him play like it was yesterday. I remember how the old pub – and the people in it – came to life and became part of the soundscape, conjuring a tremendously powerful, yet somehow ethereal, ambiance and experience. It pulled me in like voodoo and it was as if we’d all been transported to an alternate reality, where day was night and night was day. What’s more, it was the first time in a long time I felt as if I belonged somewhere.

He was a wild thing, a crooner, poet, a machine – like Mad Max with a guitar, or Tom Waits, but with melody. Australian, of course. He was C.J. Lee.

Australian blues n’ roots, folks. You can check him out on YouTube.

I know what you’re thinking, so hold your horses. In the words of Layne Staley; It Ain’t Like That.

Anyway. We have arrived in Edinburgh, somewhere around 2014. I was desolate, heartbroken, at the end of my rope. I had nothing and no one and had left my old life behind for a love that had existed only in my mind. I had ventured out for a booze shop when something made me stop at the corner of my street and glance across the road. A pub had appeared from out of nowhere! And that’s when I saw a poster in the pub window, promising live music and… something about a wolf? Forgotten was my initial need to restock my liquor cabinet – I knew I needed to go to this session thing.

And, if you’ve ever been to one of the far too many open mic sessions that you can find littered across our beautiful city, where indifferent imitators having watched too many episodes of The Voice perform half-arsed versions of shitty conveyor belt pop songs that means nothing to them, this session is nothing like that. This session showcased proper blues musicians, performing with a palpable passion and an undying need to communicate their message. Some covers here and there, of course, but mostly original songs – all of them performed with heart and soul, and I am lucky enough to have been welcomed into and taken part in it.

To this day, I’m glad I went to that session. It was the first of many and it’s brought me a lot of joy over the years, through providing me with community, family and friendships, a sense of belonging. Still does.

The thing about those unplanned moments of good fortune is that they eliminate the need for any overthinking, so I entered this new world without having had the chance to ruin it for myself before I got there. I was able to be who I really was, instead of putting on one of my many hats to fit in.

The thing about serendipitous moments, though, is that it can be difficult to see them as anything other than a fluke, so when you don’t expose yourself to that world for a long wee while, you sort of forget it exists. You forget the you that exists within that universe. The only time you’re reminded of those good days is through social media, and even then it’s not really real. I mean, the Internet shouldn’t be taken too seriously. Have a look at what’s happening in the world around you, for fuck’s sake.

Anyway. When my phone rang Sunday morning, it was a reminder of how important it can be to nurture those interactions, so you don’t forget about them, those friendships that never feel forced of difficult. The ones that span years, oceans and lifetimes, through which we stay young, unfettered, hungry for life. Because the voice on the other end when I picked up belonged to none other than my old pal from Oz, just back from one of his gigs in his current home of Ontario, Canada.

Or, it could have been Tom Waits that had decided to hack his Messenger and give me a call, I never was able to tell those two apart.

All I know is that, as an added bonus, our brief conversation reminded me of that gem of an album he put out five years ago; Hitchcock Sequel. And, while you’re already on his Bandcamp page, you should check out Ad Nauseam Blues as well.

Nevertheless, that phone call brightened my day. The sound of that voice I’ve not heard “live” in years is more familiar to me than that of an electric car. My comrade and brother from an entirely different mother had decided to check in with me, and it got me thinking about friendships and the simple joys in life, and how I haven’t been great at realising they’re there for me as a source of good when I need to start climbing my way out of my ditch of depression, rather than digging myself down into it, ever deeper.

Perhaps that’s the case for you as well? If so, I think we should both start thinking about those good memories once in a while. When you’re thinking about someone, let them know. Maybe that’s your gut telling you to check up on your pal before they fall into chatbot psychosis, or worse?

Fuck gratitude journals and all that crap – let’s just look up from our pits of despair and smell the sweetness. It’s there, even when you’ve forgotten how it made you feel.

As a token of my appreciation for your making it to the bottom of my ramblings, there’s a link to C.J. Lee’s beautiful 2020 album Hitchcock Sequel in the Spotify link below, and you can click on these words right here to get to a place where you can learn more about this incredible musician. The set image for this post is the front cover of the album. The artwork is by Sean Stanley.

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See you next Tuesday, for some fresh ramblings. I am off to investigate how much damage an impromptu trip to Canada would do to my account. Much love.